No more overthinkiing

I need to write this down. I took the GMAT earlier today, right at the end of my week off, and scored a 715. It’s a great score, one I’m proud of, and I’m confident that if I take it again, I could do even better. My major was in Math, so I doubt any school will be overly concerned about my quant performance.

Lately, I’ve been thinking way too much about my career, and I’m dreading going back to work tomorrow. I’m on the fence about going back to school—I probably won’t. It’s too expensive, too much work, and for what? Just to end up in another job? This is about my identity. I see myself as a businessman, and I need to embrace that fully. My career will be what I make of it. I’m ready to step away from my high-paying job, possibly for good. Maybe next year, if things aren’t going well, I’ll reconsider an MBA or retake the GMAT. Who knows? But for now, I’m done with the idea of going back to school just for another degree.

Part of the issue, I think, is my non-existent love life. I’m doing my best to win over Lexi. I really like her—I think she might be the one. If she were by my side, I feel like I could succeed at anything. Tomorrow, I’m going to try to pet her dog again, and I just know everything will feel a little more right after that. Work will be busy, but it is what it is.

I hate that I’m overthinking everything, but at least I’ve considered all my options: MCAT, LSAT, a master’s, and finally, an MBA. An MBA seems like the best path forward. Next year, when I turn 25, I’ll be ready to work on my application. In May, I plan to consult with a top firm to maximize my chances, and come Round 1, I’ll go all in. By December this year, I’m quitting Datavant for good. I’ll spend the next year chasing in-person opportunities, love, or MBA-worthy experiences.

This is it. No more wavering. I’m committing to my decisions and embracing whatever comes. All the best with Lexi tomorrow!