Life updates
Long time no see, huh? I have quite a few updates. I feel like, and indeed have been, a changed man since the incident and after my trip to India.
Let’s start with work. Initially, I struggled to find any motivation. I made excuses, missed deadlines, didn’t make any effort to get to know my coworkers, and was overall a bad sport. Now, I’m back in the game. I’m working hard and making an impact. I just hope it’s not too late and that a lot of damage hasn’t been done.
About the business? Oh, it’s going great. We set out with a goal to learn how to run a business, and we’ve done exactly that. We’ve learned a ton. We haven’t made much profit yet, but we’re hopeful for a great summer. We’ve questioned whether owning a food shop is too small-scale or lacks prestige. But I believe in hard work and contributing positively to your community. As long as the fundamentals are strong, we’ll be fine. And the story is what you make of it.
As for the incident, day by day, I am getting better. I feel like I’ve recovered, but then it hits me again. All the memories, the regrets, what was said, and what was left unsaid, and is unknown. I have more or less always thought about her before going to bed. I talk with an imaginary version of her, asking her why she “didn’t move things forward.” I wonder whether it was my impatience that sabotaged it or if she truly didn’t like me. Sometimes, I fantasize about getting back together with her. She would be so perfect! But I do realize it’s my fantasy, and that she wouldn’t be perfect. I had a rebound, though. Things were on and off with this Bangladeshi Muslim girl for a while, and I regret not having tried harder there. But despite what I say, I don’t think I am over CG, so that attitude makes sense. All those biodatas and none like hers! What a pity! I wonder if she found someone better than me. What is wrong with me? Whatever. I’ve been watching Deepika Padukone’s movies recently, and despite the fact that she looks just like her, I keep watching them. I’ve learned so many lessons in such a short period of time. I wish I were closer to her! Whoever gets to be with her is such a lucky guy, but all I can do is wish them a good life.