Heartbreak

Today, after experiencing two hours of deep sadness, I’ve decided to share my thoughts in this blog post. The sadness was triggered by a piece of news I received while driving my friends, who are visiting. I learned that a significant matter in my life might be drawing to a close. This was hinted at by a recent lack of response to my texts and some indirect information I received. Although my parents seem aware of the situation, they chose not to discuss it during my friends’ visit.

I am heartbroken. While I had to maintain composure driving my friends home, internally, I was processing this potential ’termination’. I find myself spending this week with my friends, trying to come to terms with what’s happening.

During these moments, I’ve been reflecting, sometimes finding excuses for the rejection, and at other times, denying it altogether. Despite the despair, I’ve realized that acting out of sadness, like sending a breakup text to elicit guilt, isn’t the right approach. Instead, I’ve decided to be straightforward with my friends and family. I’ll inform my friends briefly and ask for some space.

With my family, honesty will be my policy. I won’t speculate or invent reasons for this situation, like immigration motives or cultural differences. It’s important for me to accept my part in this outcome and not shift blame.

This personal crisis coincides with a busy time at work and in my business, both of which are entering crucial phases. Despite my emotional state, I’m committed to fulfilling my responsibilities. After all, as the poem goes, “But I have promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep.”