Breakup

She actually just broke up with me over a text. I was eating a burger, watching an indian sitcom, and thinking about the wedding event I am going to attend tomorrow when i got a text from her. For a very brief moment, i was excited that she actually texted. But soon i was dwarfed in disappointment because i realized what the text was. Cleaned my hands while hoping that the text isnt what I think it is. But it was.

I had thought about this moment for so long. I had worried about my reaction. The disappointment in my dads mind. My mom doesnt take rejection very well. Here it is. Interesting is that I didnt feel any sadness. I just felt a void. I am not sure if that was because I had thought about this moment so much that I had already felt sad beforehand!

ANyways, it feels a little bit nice that it’s over. I don’t know what the consequences of this are with respect to my personal life and relationships. I will try to not let it affect other parts of my life so much. I think I will feel a little pained everytime something reminds me of her. But that’s life. I will forget with time. I have a gift ready for her. I bought a picture frame and uploaded pictures of her favorite model. I dont know what to do with it now. I guess I will go onto the app and delete her gift message. I made this trip to India so that I could move things forward. We spent so much on this trip. Now God knows what will come out of it. We will see.

Why do girls do this to me? They always send signals like they are having fun, and they are interested. But they break up after all. I don’t get this. Ah, whatever. I resisted thinking about why she broke up for an hour. But here they come… the thought. GOD help me!